Thankful

[mythicfox]

I just want to babble for a moment, if I may.

Fact of the matter is, I know I've been kind of tough to deal with the last couple of years. And some would argue that with what I've been through I'm more than a little justified, but I'm not one of those people. There reaches a point where 'reasons' become 'excuses' and while I have trouble breaking myself out of current cycles I've seen what lies down that path and frankly it terrifies me a bit.

I'm trying to keep myself together and get myself to a point where I can sort out a lot of crap in my life that I've screwed up one way or another and there are people who've stuck by me even though I'm not convinced I deserve it.

I'm usually not one of those "I'm thankful for..." types of guys around this time of year but I just want to take a moment to thank the people who've stuck by me, put up with my crap, openly encouraged me to keep going, patiently hovered just off to the side in case I need them, or even just acknowledged my existence on occasion. I'm thankful for all of that, even though I've really been shitty about showing I appreciate it. I wish there was more I could do or say to properly express it, but the events of the last couple of years have made a lot of things hard on me emotionally and I was never good at that sort of thing even when things were good.

There's not a whole lot that makes me sincerely smile nowadays, but knowing there are people to whom I matter even as a passing distraction is one of the few things that does.

Thanks again.

Comments

[furryjackal.livejournal.com]

*HUGS* hon! That message goes both ways, ya know. You've stuck by me, too, even though I'm a tough person to deal with. Just returning the kindness!

Anytime

[(Anonymous)]

It's you and me, man. Just us left from the Frat Pack. You've done a hell of a lot for me over the years, and I've repaid that kindness whenever I could. That's why we stick together, mutual friendship. I'm sure I annoyed you when we first sat next to each other in Science 9 Honors. You helped me make it through that horrible class, and I built you the Sherman Tank mono green deck. Remember the purple flying hippo? Good times!

By the way, there's a new subtype of Magic card called a curse. I intend to build you a deck around them-- and they will all be foil.